Between Seasons

Or The Spaces Between

Nov 09, 2025

selective focus photo of white flower and plant — Photo by Janita O’Hara on Unsplash

Seasons are changing, and for a lot of us fall/winter feels like a reset- a new start. Fall and winter are seasons for tending, cleaning, preparing, and making way for new growth.

Seasons may change, but our Lord never changes.

He remains faithful. In His faithfulness He is showing me that He is for me and I am often wrong about Him. How gently and lovingly He corrects me.

As the leaves are falling and all is being renewed, He also is renewing me. As dead gardens are being uprooted and dry lawns cleared of weeds and debris, He also is working in the garden that is my heart. Ripping up old roots, breaking the soil to prepare a new, fresh layer.

Do we ever stop to think about the violence that must precede new life? Cells must die, a mother must push, a seed must break, a plant must be cut down.

Maybe violence isn’t the best word. I don’t know what would be. Either way, the process is painful. Yes, He is gentle, but the process of being pruned and renewed is one of the most painful things because it involves dying to self. Dying to our desires, dying to the images in our head about how life should look, dying to good things, even. Because only God knows what’s best.

In my monthly recap last week, I wrote about my thoughts on the book of Esther and how God chooses to use people to carry out His will. He uses people to grow us and sanctify us in many different ways. Sometimes, this looks and feels like pruning.

It’s crazy to me how someone who plays such a small role in your life can have so much impact. Nothing is wasted.

Just like in Esther, it may not always be apparent but God is moving. He is always working. Sometimes it’s easy to see His hand in a situation, sometimes it feels nearly impossible. Sometimes it feels like you’re “in between” but you don’t even know in between what, yet!

I think the last time I felt like this was when I first became a Christian (it was only a year and a half after the accident which took my legs). God was asking me to let go of everything life had been up to that point. But I had no idea what was supposed to take the place of all that. All those plans and dreams that now seemed even further out of reach. (I wrote a poem about it 👇🏼)

Over the years God has answered some of those questions one at a time, it feels like. But there are still unanswered questions and I’m the kind of person who wants to know all the details right away! But if I knew everything I wouldn’t have to trust God.

I have written this post in bursts and pieces across multiple days, unable to fully articulate the what or how. I’m aware it probably feels disconnected and choppy. Right now, I am sitting on the balcony, eating sushi, admiring the gorgeous trees and hazy sky. I am thinking back to the training/study session my women’s bible study co-leaders and I had this morning. We covered Psalms 23 and 34. Psalm 23 is probably my favorite Psalm.

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In Psalm 23, David is acknowledging all the ways God is present in his life and leading him. God is David’s shepherd, his provider, his rest. God is all of those things and more for every single one of us He calls His child. I just need to lean in and trust Him, I need to surrender. He will lead me.