I grew up in a broken home never really feeling seen or heard, and withstanding different forms of abuse. By the time I was in middle school I was struggling with anxiety and depression, though I didn’t know it at the time.
I was also very, very shy and held a lot of anger and resentment in my heart. I felt like the black sheep of the family and didn’t know where my place was in this world. I grew up Catholic by association but my family was never really practicing Catholics.
I didn’t think about God much, not even enough to consider whether I believed in Him or not. As I got older I started believing in a higher power, or the universe. I believed and practiced New Age ideologies and definitely did not give Jesus Christ much consideration.
However, looking back, He was wooing me with all the wonderful things He made that moved my spirit. He allowed a lot of pain, anger, and confusion in my life but also protected me from a lot. In His abounding grace and love He was seeking me while I sought my higher self.
Fast forward to 2017, I was hit by a freight train while on foot and I firmly believed it was because of Him that I had survived. By then He was already opening my heart but I still didn’t know Him. Fall of 2018 I met a girl at a Trader Joe’s who invited me to bible study at what became my home church.
A few months later I invited Jesus into my heart because I realized I desperately needed Him and I came to believe He was the only way to God and the only way to my salvation. It’s again by His abounding grace that I am learning of His love for me, who I truly am and where I truly belong.
If you don’t know this Jesus I’m talking about, I pray that you would come to know Him and experience the greatest relationship and blessing you could imagine. Please do not hesitate to reach out to me if you have any questions or want to move closer to God but don’t know where to start!
